prexypinoy to the world

 So I started a podcast. It’s an attempt to empty my mind of thoughts that consume most of my day. Before this, I had no experience speaking into a microphone with a modulated voice. I always felt my voice sounded too crisp for public speaking, let alone for recording. Still, I wanted to try something new and have a platform to share my thoughts, so I gave it a go. I love listening to podcasts. I get inspiration from the words and statements I hear. When Mel Robbins says, “Let them then, let me,” I pondered on it earnestly. Mel Robbins said there are two steps: First, let them. Let people have opinions about you, never clap, exclude, or ignore you. Let them because that’s who they are. Then the most important and probably the hardest step is to let me. Let me take the power to control my thoughts. Let me choose peace. Let me accept. Let me let go. Hearing this, I had a renewed sense of vitality. It gave me the power to own my story. Initially, I had planned to release an epis...

Two days after my parents left for the Philippines after a five-month visit, I got a text from a friend, “I’m meeting X’s friend.” It seems harmless and unsuspecting at first. I even laughed. I was not sure who X was, so I asked, Who’s X? And she replied, X, our friend. (Well, technically, X is my long-time friend from school whom I introduced to her.)      When she clarified what was happening, I felt unsettled. I realized that while others seem to move forward, I am the friend who stays the same. The force of this realization was overwhelming. If there is some metamorphosis to be had, I would have taken it gladly. But I didn’t. I was thrown back in time, where I just grew complacent. With my relationships, my behaviours, and my sense of happiness. The realization shook me. The question echoed in my mind: 'How do you take space?'  I wondered if it meant living boldly or shrinking to stay safe. I began to see that these choices defined how I interact with others...