prexypinoy to the world

“I need to get away!” That’s my major thought one day when I woke up from a deep sleep. How could I not take a single vacation leave for a year? I wondered. This comes after my stupid travel ban rule in the hopes of recovering financially. However, the signs of burnout are showing – exhaustion, lethargy, and boredom. I feel as though I am working for nothing. I could not possibly go on working because I know what I can do if I reach a certain limit. I initially planned to travel to somewhere beautiful early this year. I made the plans, map out the places to go, and even go as far as booking my hotels. BUT… I changed my mind and opted to fly home instead. Going home is a long ride and a very expensive one at that. I am so used to coming home on a 3–4-hour flight but Canada is just so far. I was mentally preparing myself. I have three weeks of vacation. I decided to take one week off to take my parents on a trip, much to their surprise. I made the plans myself and decided to ...

Funny how I used to care about so many people before. I’d like to be on the loop, to be in the know. But now as a levelheaded 30-ish, I come into terms about what I can control and what I cannot. I care less about other people’s opinions because I was never one to do things based on other people’s feelings. I care less about a person’s story because it is not my personal experience. You may say I am uninterested. Yes, I am deeply uninterested about other people’s affairs unless they want me to be a part of it. I admit it gets scary sometimes because I feel like I am closing off. I don’t like forcing things or undefined anything. I don’t like undefined relationships, undefined preferences, or undefined intentions, among others. If you like me, sure! That’s great, we could be friends. If you don’t, that’s okay, too. I’d like to think that the more I stay in the moment, the more focused I am to achieve meaningful experiences. I have always thought of life as a fleeting gift that...