prexypinoy to the world

I am currently enrolled in a Canadian College taking up three subjects for one term. I feel happy to finally put myself out there and get another degree. There are differences in the levels of learning but perhaps this is due to the circumstances that I am in. First, with COVID-19, I am taking up asynchronous courses. These courses are not "real-time" and it is quite advantageous for me since I have a job to keep plus the time zone has a big time variance.  Second, I noticed that the manner of course deliverance is "independent" meaning, students are expected to do everything by themselves. If they have questions, then that's the only time they ask for assistance. unlike our local college, where every instruction is supervised, professors in my Canadian College only asks for the output. It depends on the student whether they reach out to the professor or not because professors would not check out on you every time. Third, I noticed that with online education, co

I scrolled Facebook and saw how happy my friends’ posts are. I’ve seen their husband, kids, and the little things they do as a family.   I’m not going to lie. Seeing those, I began to feel a familiar ache deep within me. I wondered whether I will have the same fate. I wondered whether I can be as happy as I perceive them to be with all the settling down and blossoming family life.   I closed my Facebook app and switched to Instagram. I saw the same thing. I saw smiling faces of celebrity couples lounging at home for quarantine. I saw newly engaged Demi Lovato. I also saw the other Demi, cheek padded as she just had a wisdom tooth removal surgery and Tim Tebow was capturing that moment. I even saw my close friend, having the time of her life with her new beau.   In that moment, I began to feel uneasy. I know, we need to be happy for someone else. I always inject that in mind. But I cannot help myself from feeling uncomfortable. To put it bluntly, I felt a tinge of bitterness in my mouth

I am a force to reckon with. I can be very passionate. I can be very strong. I can take storms and dance with the waves. I am happy knowing that I am resilient enough to withstand whatever it is that I am faced with. I always try to be at the top of my game. BUT… Along the lines of control and enduring without breaking… Along the swells of the waves and never drowning… In the middle of it all, I lose that one thing that keeps me going. I am so busy with the how’s that I end up forgetting my why’s.