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As much as we want to take old friends with us to the next level, sometimes, it’s better to just leave them as they are. I have always been a very loyal friend. The type to make an enemy of someone who messes up with my friend. I’d like to think that that’s just how I view friendships – worth protecting for. I am usually cool. I don’t take things like everything is such a big deal. I’ve never been that problematic friend with various issues. However, with the recent friendship situation that I am in, I am reconsidering the type of friend I am and exactly the type of friend I have. As a friend, I am slow to process anger. I get annoyed, yes, but most of my friends don’t really get the gravity of what I’m feeling because I don't show it. Normally, I take a step back and process it on my own like a stupid martyr suffering in silence. But not anymore. I have made a vow to myself. With relationships, romantic or friendship, I would never compromise my own emotions. I refuse to

“I have mental challenges.” It’s pretty common especially here in the North American region. A friend and I once had a dialogue about the possible causes of mental illness in a first-world country, such as Canada and we could infer that there are several factors that when you look at it, are intertwined. I want to put a disclaimer here; this is a stereotypical analysis with no proof other than what is observed. This may sound ignorant, but it is what it is, and I do not want to sugarcoat things. Growing up and being raised in a third-world country offers a stark contrast to the economic and social capabilities of individuals living here. I always think that depression and underlying mental conditions emanate from experiences as a child. It must have been a void that no matter how you try to seal it, sinkhole after sinkhole appears. For one, I am living in a very expensive city, and with this comes the resources that you need to produce to keep on living here. From an economic perspecti