prexypinoy to the world

Level up. I recently went home for a week-long vacation. Again, I found a lot of changes around me. Why, Davao has become crowded, smaller and probably hotter! Notwithstanding the schedule of meeting friends, I found time to be alone, wandering around the mall as my thoughts drowned me. (Just like the old days) So I went to look for clothes that I fancy, perhaps I can buy quite a few pieces, as plain and simple as I’d like my shirt to be, I was surprised it costs as much as 15 dollars. Seriously?! So I told Pop, I don’t think the equilibrium of the salary and the goods here is fair. How are malls supposed to survive? People don’t loan just to buy stuffs, right? (or atleast not me),  then Pop told me, “that’s because you’re so kuripot. Everything looks expensive to you” and I was like “oh well… haha. It’s not easy to earn money” then Pop told me, “now you know!” Seriously, if I was to earn around 20K in a month, I still have to pay taxes, monthly bills, groceries, ...

I love you! Words I’ve been longing to say and hear just the same. But every time, I just feel disappointed and disheartened. Boo! Frankly, there are days when I feel so empty and alone. Those freaking days that make me miss someone who I never should. Then, I look around at people, friends who seemed too solid to be single are those same friends who are now attached. Really?! I am not closing my doors. I am opening my eyes to the changes around me but most often than not, I am not prepared to let someone enter my life. Why? Fear. For some reasons, I fear that I may not maintain the relationship. I fear about my expectations (or lack of it). I fear about what I need to do and what I do not. It’s obviously a matter of being scared to invest and going down the drain after everything. I know. I know that it sounds well too idealistic and believe me, I’ve tried. I’ve tried to like someone who persistently bugs me but interest, oh well, if I am not interested, it will never...