cebu
I am home for good.
I went to Cebu for
reasons I do not know. I saw Rachel and she offered me and the rest to stay at
their house. I grabbed the chance. Later we went to a beach, a very sunny and
crowded beach with ladies all soiled up from beach volley and others, leisurely
reading novels on a huge towel. Wow! Everyone seems to be having the time of
their lives.
I checked my phone. Geez! I am back to my goody ‘ol
ever reliable Nokia phone. I have a reception. I glanced around and I realized
I haven’t talked to my family about my moving into Cebu
yet.
I felt sick to my stomach. Why didn’t I inform them
before packing all my bags and moving out from Singapore ? I felt guilty. I felt naïve.
I felt I have hurt them badly. I checked my Iphone. No connection from my past.
They all went blur. I realized I haven’t even handed my resignation letter. Why
did I rush things like this? I said to myself.
I was having a hard time thinking why I agreed to
move out anyway. I felt confused. I told A and S that I am very much upset. I
asked them if we had a conversation regarding the moving out and they confirmed
we did. I was excited, that’s what they said.
I tried to remember. Was I drunk? Was I feeling
depressed during that time? Did I really decide to go with them? I cannot
recall. So I went back to the cabin and found myself sitting in the lounge
chair. Perhaps, I’d call my boss and inform him that I will be taking a two-day
emergency leave. Will he know I’m back to my hometown? Or should I just go with
this and have my self AWOL-ed?
I remembered my Pass. Is it with me? Oh it is! A
surge of happiness. I recalled that when we were packing last night I did not
include some of my stuff. I slept early and let them pack their own stuff for
moving out. A came out and told me she packed my things for me. How sweet. I
said my thank you and leave her at the porch.
My head aches from trying to remember everything. Migraine.
I’ve gone too far. I am still undecided. What would I do?
KRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG…
KRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG…
My alarm kicks in.
I was awoken from a deep sleep with a disoriented
glance sideways, I saw nothing but darkness.
6 AM.
I stared at the ceiling with the same thoughts of
puzzlement. Why was I in Cebu ?
What was I thinking?
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