free for all

It takes a lot of courage to pull your self together. It takes a lot of faith to survive a single day. It takes a lot of love to continue living.

You see, it is very difficult to be who we are. It is difficult to assume a role that you would carry through no matter what happens. It is hard to continue rowing despite the harsh winds and rueful waves. But why do we seek out to proceed? Why do we go through it all when we know for sure that everything ends?

Despite the challenges and the little triumphs, we know it all fades. Whatever we have, we own it. Temporarily. So why do we aim to get more when we do know how fickle this life is? A taste of the air up above will never equal to the polluted wind I keep on breathing in most of my life. But I proceed to nurture life…

Perhaps, we’re made this way. We do have an idea where or how it ends yet we’re thrilled to go beyond what we know. Eager for surprises that would make us smile or be weary.  Between the points A and E-nd, there is a series of points for which we call LIVING. We are defining every moment of those points; those points define us in return.

 A good friend once confessed, “…if God would want to take me now, I’d be willing.”

HOPELESSNESS… the true meaning of life is not on how willing we are to let go of what is borrowed but on how we fought to make the borrowed, meaningful.  

We all go through certain phases. We can never compare our own tough times with others’. To be able to wake up and get through the day, no matter how we’re feeling is an achievement. Day by day, it is a challenge to grow. To develop a certain stand on stability and security.

We can never be accustomed to being weak just because we thought of ourselves as WEAK from the very beginning. The more we know and accept what we have and what we don’t is already a tool to determine how we want ourselves to be driven by. “I AM WEAK” yet we aren’t weak enough to take it slowly. One BABY step at a time. Who cares if there are more pauses than the steps? As long as we don’t stop.

We don’t live alone. We are not the center of the universe. Ourselves… should never be centered to our own feelings, thoughts and ideas. Why, the more we take notice of our own, the less chance to see what surrounds us. We lose sight of the things that make us appreciate what we are blessed with because we associate negativity more than positivity.

Who says life is easy? No one did.

So if we look closely, we do have an idea that nobody is guaranteed a stress/ pain/ etc- free life. We all have our own battles for which we either brave to conquer or run away to escape. We all have our own monsters hidden beneath the dark space underneath our beds or intricately designed closets. We all have our own burdens to carry very heavily or lightly. We all experience the same pain and sacrifices depending on the degree of intensity.

Nobody is exempted.

But the bigger question is, why would you want to end it without giving it a real fight? Why would you want to be stepped down when you can pull right back it and bite it as hard as you can? What do we need?

COURAGE. FAITH. LOVE.