futre self
To the FUTURE SELF,
After 10 years, what have you become?
Perhaps, you’ve achieved your greatest dream—a happy
and healthy family of your own.
How many kids have you got? 4? As per your old preference?
I hope so. How’s your cool parents? Your ever stage sister? Hope they are all
good.
What am I supposed to write? Of course, it’s best
to run down the memory lane…
10 years ago, you were the enthusiastic,
adventurous and giddy girl. I can remember the spark in your eyes, the
mischievous glitter when we talk about something that interests you. People
loved talking to you as you are animated, bold and funny. You look formal on
the outside but when people know you more or even as night falls and you’re
with your gang; your laughter echoes the room. How green can a green joke be? How
naughty can your imagination go? It’s you who remembers better.
Most of the time, you were calm and contained. You don’t
get mad easily but when you do, you couldn’t sleep without sharing your
thoughts to the person who made you feel that way. You were not really into
fights but when provoked; your thoughts are as lethal as a hounding dog. You do
acknowledge feeling blue, you do know how lonely life can be but you always
look at the brighter side of things. You’ve been single for so long, you longed
for someone that suits your personality. The good thing about you is that, you
knew your value. You don’t just settle for anyone, even if he offers you more
than what you can buy. I remembered you
to be like that.
Who captured your heart? Is it someone I know? Someone
from the past? OHMY!! I remembered you shared that “what is life without
someone you love?” CORNY!! Seriously? But it’s always nice to have such mushy
conversations with you, we’d bash young, overly attached couples and questioned
if they last. (sus, magbulag ra japun mo! Haha) Remember? You once shared that “life
is truly meaningless if you don’t get who you want ( wow naman!) but you also contested that if it’s that the
case, then there is a good reason for it.” Fate? Destiny? (andito na naman tayo) Now I am
asking you, among the guys that you’ve had your eyes on back then, did your
paths met again? Did fate bring you together this time? Hmnnn…
What makes you busy these days? Did you finally set
up your dream shop? (car shop? Hardware? What is it again?) Or did you open a
Rice store? How many pigs have your got in you pig pen? Farming? Did you go for
the karinderia? Or perhaps, did you finish Law school? Earned your masters? I
hope that whatever you do now, is what you really wanted to do for long. You
told me, Life is too short to live miserably by doing routine jobs out of
paying the bills. I couldn’t agree more.
How about your travels? Have you travelled to the USA Europe ? Had your honeymoon in Paris Japan Japan
Did you meet a lot of people? Have you expanded
your horizons? You know you got the interpersonal thingy but you just are too
lazy to reach out. Have you changed? I hope you did. You will inspire a lot of
people if you only learn to open up. You used to tell me that if you like a
person, you really like him or her, if not, then you really do not. But what I
wanted to say back then was, aren’t there second chances? Aren’t a person worth
the getting-to-know-you stage for just say, benefit of the doubt? Sometimes,
the candy is not as sweet as it looks. You know that by now, don’t you?
I loved you as you are my one true friend and love
you even though distance separated us. You always give me the reason to smile whenever
I am blue. Your antics are hilarious and you’re not afraid to look stupid even
if you sometimes are. HAHA. Peace out. I still remember my gregarious friend,
just light and easy. I hope you haven’t changed to a monster you said you are
slowly becoming. (papangit ka nun) It’s not good. I hope to see the same
feeling-HS-girl in you.
10 years have gone by, time is indeed so fast. When
you look back, I hope you looked back with a full heart. A life of no, if not,
less regrets. I hope as you go through life, you will always remember the fun
memories we made together. Those memories fuel up life as it should be. I’m
telling you, I lived for those memories, I can never bring back those fun and
sad times, but experiencing it one time is more than enough to last me a lifetime.
I’m glad I’ve known you.
As we go through life, may the zest and bliss we
feel expand to inspire others as well. Who says, we’re too old for dreams? I do
know you’ve got so many dreams pending for coming true, I hope they do, one
day. We don’t give up, do we? We chase
our dreams countless of times and when it does not fall into place, we just let
it run through the limbo to give space for new dreams. We recycle dreams. We
just don’t surrender just like that. We are fighters that way.
Finally, I hope to bump into you one day and
realize how gorgeous you are, not by the fancy clothes you wear or the makeup
you finally applied ( I know you aren’t the makeup type), not by the vanity of
a sophisticated 30 something but the glow of a happy, fulfilled and wonderful
woman.
P.S. meet me when you finally made your first
million, if you already did, then let’s have drinks sometime, of course, it’s
on you! J
Love,
Your OLD SELF.
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