confession of a convert

Kung kelan tumanda, dun pa nalulong!

Kung maka-“lulong” naman, kala mo kung anong droga… this is more addicting than droga.

I have branched out (branched out talaga?) to KPOP idols, korean variety shows and even GIF clips of there KOREAN personalities, On top of being a Jadine Convert.

Naalala ko tuloy si Clark nung nagconfess sya kay Leah, yun yung:  “eto na yun, ubos na ubos na ako, wala na akong kaya pang ibigay”… INTENSE! Ganyang ganyan ang damdamin ko na pati shows na walang audio pinatos ko na at pati picture ng aso ni Nadine, sinave ko sa phone ko.  Inalagaan kong parang akin.

San ka pa, Friday nights and you’d think about going home na kasi may icacatch up ka pang episodes. Hindi pwedeng makamiss kasi tiyak na di ka makakarelate sa latest chika ng mga barkada mong bumubuo ng 200 unread messages ng facebook messenger mo.

E ayaw ko namang basahin kasi real-time and chismisan, while simultaneous ang palabas ni Leah at Clark. No spoilers please!!

Marami din akong nahasang skills sa kakapanood, akalain mong, na a-unleash pala ang mga sumusunod:

1)      Investigative skills--  daig ko pa yung taga bureau, detective Conan here we go, walang makakaligtas kakadig ng mga panibagong impormasyon, isingit ang screenshot as exhibit A. Hindi pwedeng walang basehan kasi nagiging “gawa-gawa” na lamang sya. So pagsabing, huy yung kissing scene grabe!!!  (insert screenshot1 ) (insert screenshot 2) (insert link if any) .  Ganun yun!. Isa pa, nahahasa ang skills kakaretrieve nung mga  binurang posts take, for example, litratong pinost ni Nadine 15 seconds ago pero dinelete kasi di bumagay sa mala-tumblr-ish nyang instagram profile. Wait lang, give me 10 sec, I can bring it back!

2)      Lawyering skills—uy, may ADDU con post, may babae daw from Davao as GF ni james! Wait!! Bakit ngayon lang nilabas? Puno ng paghihimagsik kong binasa ang nasabing post at natanto kong, isang malaking ilusyon. Over my dead venomous body! (wag nang voluptuous,di pa arrive!)  pero sa usaping Inah Evans vs people of Jadine, este James, ayaw ko mang aminin sapagkat nagiging unloyal ako… naniniwala ako kay mother kepler Inah. (oha oha, may beki words na din akong nalalaman) tinimbang kong maigi ang isyu na parang usapin ng territorial claim ng China against Spratley at Parecel Islands, at napagtanto kong, ang mga salita ni Inah tungkol sa kanyang nakita ay consistent.  By virtue of power vested in me as a bystander, I now pronounce you telling the truth. hihi

3)      Interpersonal skills-- my favourite. Mga kaibigang di mo nakakausap araw araw, masusurprise ka nalang,  nagmemessage, naghahayag ng opinion sa natapos na episode o sa isyung nakatanghay sa kasalukuyan. Saan ka mang parte ng mundo, join ka sa usapin na may malaking ambag sa development ng humanity. haha Ang malimit na paggamit ng tamang pagpapahayag ng saloobin, paniniwala, demokrasya ng pananalita at pakikipagtalastasan sa mga kuru-kurong puno ng spekulasyon sa mga “intelligent discussions” kung saan active member ako. Jadine singapore, represent!!

Ilan lamang ito sa mga nasinop kong abilidad.

At sa pagkalulong kong ito marami akong nakalimutan--- pangungulila, kalungkutan, pati na rin sinaing kong hindi naihain at nilabhan kong naghihintay pang maisampay.

I still can’t believe It, I have friends closer than ever kasi gabi gabi ito ang pulutan. May magkakaibang opinion, iba’t ibang pinaniniwalaan, may die hard fans, loyal at mejo unloyal. May madaling bumibitiw at may excited magmove on from the issue but isa ang something that holds us together… our being fanatic! 

christmas love

Santa claus is coming to town!

Whoa, the news says… its 25 MORE DAYS to go and it’s Christmas!

I am down to my 5^th year, celebrating Christmas here in Singapore. And frankly, I really do miss celebrating it in DAVAO.

While I am drowned with fabulous Christmas decors that glitter in whatever angle, I feel less. Less in a way that, it’s just a day off.

I kind of miss the feeling of bliss that lasts a very long time. Yes, I think that is what makes Christmas different in PH.

We’d go to a mall and all counters were too busy. The queue is just so long but as weird as it may sound, it makes you feel happy.

Why, the people are happily chatting while queuing up! The rush, the mind-boggling thrill on what gift to get for your manito, the gathering of old friends that you haven’t seen for a long time? It feels nostalgic.

Here in Singapore, we’ve been celebrating in a very low key. My very first Christmas, I celebrated it in a coffee shop!

My second, third and fourth, I celebrated it with my housemates. And this Christmas, I’m excited to say that I am celebrating it with my family!! YAYY!!

My parents are coming, so as my sis and her fambam. (ssshhh it’s a secret! My parents do not know about this! SURPRISE!!!)

I just feel elated at the thought.

Anyway, I am still preparing where to take them. As a cheery and aherm.. gorgeous host, I would want it to be special.

For starters, I want to take them to dinner with a scenic view, on where that is, I am still checking places. Also, I would want my nephews to experience the zoo. How does a giraffe look in real life? I’m sure Chino will be delighted!

I’m still planning. I won’t have much time though as I will be working and doesn’t have any vacation leave to spare… but I’m sure things will work out.

And as for Christmas wish, I’d ask WORLD PEACE in generality… and of course, GOOD HEALTH, HAPPINESS, and LOVE.

For myself, Santa, I’ve been asking since day 1, it makes me think as though, the gift I’m asking does not fit your sack or is too heavy for the sleigh. But whatever, you do know, don’t ya? Hihi.

More importantly, I wish Christmas would be an instrument to make people come together. Where love would reign, more than hate and ambition. 

Merry Christmas in 25 days’ time! ^8^

Not me.

“The biggest change in my life is that… I have learned how to be relaxed”, says Victoria.

That line hit me. Victoria and I are of the same age.

While she is a celebrity, a foreigner at that, I can very well relate to how she’s running her life.

She mentioned, she plays well by herself. She uses her free time to rest and when she gets bored, she’d go to places, discover new restaurants, and have coffee in various cafes… ALONE, at that.

While reading, I evaluated myself. And it brought me to a conclusion:

I have been very obsessed about having company.

At one point, I think I have forgotten to enjoy my solace. I have been very used to going out with company that it feels weird to be alone when in fact; I used to be all ALONE from way back.

Well, some might view me anti-social, a plain snob or even a pitiful sight, but back then, I never cared. I was happy.

I was contented with my life. I had fun going around the mall, watching people, finding cool stuff, reading cover pages of random book in the Bookstore. Dining alone is also SUPER fine.

My boss used to ask me, why I do that… And I’d reply, “Do what?”  To me, it’s something very basic. It’s not every time that I get to drag friends off from their busy schedule… which is coincidental to the fact that, I also do not want to be a disturbance. To me, it is completely okay, so why bother?

However, as time changed, I have found myself in a very peculiar position in my life.

I became somewhat obsessed to going out with a purpose. Gone are the days when I just decide to go out, just because I want to. Now, it’s completely because I need to buy this or that,  check this or that, watch a movie or what--- with a friend.

And with this idea of dependence, I feel that I have lost my free-spirited nature.

I became too dependent and it’s sickening. I grew anxious, lonely and  yes, sad.

They said if these feelings come about when you’re single, it only means one thing: you are getting bored at being single!

I honestly don’t know about that, but one thing’s for sure, I need to recover.

This is so NOT me.