breakouts and heartbreaks

My face is in bad condition AGAIN.

My breakouts are taking over it.
I have had bouts of depression due to my worsening acne condition.
And it’s not that I am passive about treatment but I’ve met different dermatologists and spent $$ for it already but it keeps on coming back.

After Accutane for a year plus a lot of intensive steroids which made me fat by the way, my acne stopped. I thought my acne will end there but when I stopped the meds, my acne made its comeback.

Honestly, I am so tired of this. I am so heartbroken. I am more than upset and I can’t do anything to it anymore. My skin has lost its lustre. I resigned to the fact that indeed, beauty fades.

I just resigned from work and I have high hopes that my skin will be so much better since I would be stress-free and would have the proper time and right mind set to it, but the attack is on again.

I know for a fact that this is purely HORMONAL. I have irregular periods and it worsened when I lived here. But even so, I can’t bring myself to eat up birth control pills because I strongly believe in natural healing.

I am keeping myself busy by thinking happy thoughts, I feel like these breakouts will fade away eventually. I am rooting on that as I don’t want to hang my self-confidence on the look of my skin in my face.


Skin fairy godmother, please hear my plea. 

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