too many ways

I’m so tired of going back and forth with my decision to quit.

I know very well that this is the end of the road, yet, I worry so much of the path that I’m going to take after this dead end.

The people around me comfort me by saying that I’ll be okay.

I know I am but I can’t help myself from thinking whether I am ready to let it go.

The travelling lifestyle that I so love, the few people that I’ve grown accustomed to, the ease and convenience of the system, and most of all, the monthly finances that I have been so used… when I put it in equation, I just keep on going back to my decision to endure.

I am indecisive because this is a big decision that involves a huge change in my life.

I don’t want to sound a non-grata but if truth be told, Whenever I think about the life that I am to see and witness, there’s this flood of frightening emotions that come over me. I am leaving a safe and convenient environment in exchange of the chaotic, noisy and dangerous place.

I wanted to quit my job but by that decision comes leaving Singapore.

I am quitting my job lightheartedly, as if it’s the best thing to do but I will be leaving Singapore with a heavy heart.

I am thinking, that is life.

We are a dynamic species with the perks to move, life is meant to be explored.

And my journey is not even half of it!

Aja!