my hands

Believe in yourself.

I always look at people with so much positivity and I hope to emulate it from them.

I am surrounded by people who are either desperate or anxious about getting ahead in life and with that, I feel the pressure to keep up as well. It’s like I am queueing for something which I am not so sure what is it about but I keep queueing because I don’t want to fall last, anyway.

Then I had quite a time for reflection and thought that maybe, I’m super conscious with keeping up with everyone that I lose sight of what I really wanted to pursue. Becoming safe by riding the tide with everyone else is good but in the long run, I don’t want to look back and say that I’ve wasted my time chasing something that did not really have a meaning to me.

It’s like I’m ordering a luxury bag. It is so trendy and I’m getting excited about it just because I would have it like everyone else but not really because I am not into it in the first place.

I realized that I need to find and pursue something that I am passionate about. Because in that way, I’d find my purpose, the meaning why I do things the way they are, and in the process, it will let me grow as a person with direction, and with that, I will be satisfied.

I want to be positive in my dealings with various turmoil, with long pauses that seemed like it’s the end, in the darkness that tries to blind me as if there’s no light. I want to have the hope that life will bring me to a greater high, and feel secured that I will see it through the end, no matter what.

I may not take the same route as everyone else and it may take longer than others, but I’d like to believe that I will get there eventually. And I have to keep my faith to make it happen.


Believe in yourself.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Love you to the heavens

Image
You never realize how much you’ll miss someone until you think about how they wouldn’t be there with you physically, ever. It’s so easy to say that death is a part of life but when that happens, you couldn’t find any motivation for reason not to feel unsettled. Today, July 8 (Monday) at 7 am PST, I received an unsettling message from Papa that Nanay is gone. I called Mama and she confirmed. I went ahead with my regular Monday meetings. Acted as if nothing MAJOR happened. But shortly after lunch, tears escaped me. I couldn’t shake off the emotion enveloping me. The thing is, I thought I have prepared well enough to accept the inevitable. In my resolve, Nanay had led a good life. In her hey days, she was an activist, an ironwoman, wise beyond her years. When I was 12, Nanay brought me to Butuan with her. From Butuan, we traveled to Bacolod via ferry. It was my first ferry ride ever. We then ended in Cebu. I have very fond memories of Nanay. My cousins would go green with envy, bu...
Read more

Diffi-CULT

Image
“Difficulties strengthen the mind as labor does to the body.” Well, Marcus Aurelius had it figured out, I thought. When you think of it that way, it makes difficulties a powerful ingredient for growth. It creates a compartment somewhere inside you that makes you feel kind of normal. Who does not go through difficult times, right? Difficulties are like a vortex of darkness. You get sucked into that tunnel. You try to rationalize things, but negative feelings pile up one against the other. When that happens, you get swallowed by it. You feel trapped and hopeless. In mine, I always feel like I am trying too hard for nothing. I feel injustice. I feel as though I get to bear the brunt of things. It is both a curse and a blessing to do it solo. Curse because I get to feel like everything is a one-man show. Blessing because it makes me mentally stronger. Like what is there to lose other than a mouth (my mouth) unfed? A few years ago, I had an economic difficulty. It was difficult to m...
Read more

how to get a band score 6 and up without a review center

Image
HOW TO GET A BAND 6 and UP IN IELTS WITHOUT HAVING TO ENROL IN A REVIEW CENTER? What is IELTS? According to this site : The International English Language Testing System (IELTS) measures the language proficiency of people who want to study or work where English is used as a language of communication. It uses a nine-band scale to clearly identify levels of proficiency, from non-user (band score 1) through to expert (band score 9). TEST FORMAT There are two types of IELTS. Academic or General Training. Listening and Speaking are the same for both tests, but for Reading and Writing sections, the subject matter is different depending on which test you take. The total test time is 2 hours and 45 minutes. The details description of the test format is found here . I did a GENERAL TRAINING IELTS exam. I registered for IELTS via IDP online. STEP 1: You have to register in this site. Please note you need to upload a valid ID (e.g. pass...
Read more