desperate me

“Why I am the best person for the job?”

“It’s because no other person is much more desperate than I am.”

Technically, yes. I am desperate to switch companies as I’ve been with the same company ever since I started working here in Singapore. While I am grateful for the opportunity, I’m also in the look out to allow myself to grow career-wise.

I prayed whether it’s for me to seek another job or to just go home and start my own biz.

The answer seems to be very vague and intriguing.

Where do I go from here?

Believe me when I say that I have been in the same road for as many times as I can remember and I always choose the same choice, to stay. It is safe to stay. It stops you from thinking about the unknown.

It allows you to go on with your planned travels for the year, that and so much more.

I remembered my last year’s promise… 2018 would be a game changer. It is a year for growth and adventure. A year to be fearless in my pursuit to success. I want to keep that promise. I don’t want to go on without even exploring what I am more capable of just because I felt safe. I want to go out there and try as many things as possible, because time will never come back and wait for me.

My sister proposed for a family business, I’m glad she did and I’d be willing to help out. But my type of person is that of someone who builds her own. I was never the type to depend on connections. I’d love to believe that I like doing anything on my own like a sculptor creating her masterpiece out from the nothingness of the mud and her bare hands. Isn’t it cool? Yeah, I am idealistic that way. haha

I’d be honest though, I am very much worried about my future. Having to start all over again is scary especially now that I’m on my 30s but then again, starting all over again, no matter what age, is always frightening. The good thing though is that I am single. I am unattached and whatever my decision is, for my future, no children’s milk or diapers, kids’ tuition or household’s bills can be affected. I am living solo and my struggles and success is shared only when I want to.

I believe that opportunities come when you seek them out, actively. We’ll never really know how things are when we don’t experience them, right? I am desperate. Desperate for growth and excited for my tomorrows.

Aja!!