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Opportunity cost. In economics, it is this cost na you forego something to take in that one thing. Syempre pa, it requires thorough decision making, it requires cause and effect and pros and cons charts. Let’s take for example when I decide to go home. GO HOME STAY Broke         Richer by a penny Jobless         Sustainable job With Family Solo but w/ A Fiestas         Dora explorations Home based Have time & resources Ang hirap magdecide diba? Depende sa anggulo. Every decision is a make or break, but whether we choose one and fail, it’s not the end of the world. I earnestly believe that life is a trial and error; we can’t come out unscathed because everyday is a struggle. Sometimes, we may never know the value of failure because we dwell on the fame and pride of being victorious, but we must remember that failure just gives us a space for improvement. We fully understand how human we are b...

Dear Charo, Nais ko pong ilathala ang isang tao sa buhay ko na gusto at ayaw ko sa parehong sirkumstansya… * * * Walang hiya ka! Why do you always occupy my mind? I tried thinking about my travels and it give me this delicious feeling and then suddenly I think of you, I get even more ecstatic. What have you done to me? Sorry to burst your bubble, you are not my type. As in the looks, I don’t have a penchant for Moreno guys. I like my man, tisoy, or something of that sort. Ikaw, pinoy na pinoy, paano na ang cuteness ng mga magiging anak ko? Sa mindset, I perceive you as someone na happy-go-lucky, bakit ganun? Parang feeling ko you are still on game mode? Pwede ba, Wag ako yung subject mo this time? Tantanan mo na ako sa games mo, Otherwise, masasaktan lang talaga ako, sure hit. Di naman talaga ako selosa, jealousy especially when the real score is a thin line of friendship, is a sign of insecurity, pero I am just curious, bakit ba ang dami mong inaadd sa Facebook? Do you...

Security… We are all aiming to achieve that one word. We are all struggling to have that. Just yesterday, I received an alarming SMS from my dear sissy. She said “Gurl, call me, nahospital si mama”. Imagine my panic when I read that. If I grabbed a cup of coffee, then the coffee would go directly down the floor. So I managed to sneak out for privacy and call her mobile number. I asked quite continuously, “what happened?” “why?” “how come?” “how is she?” “what’s the result?” and my sissy just told me, I’m gonna drive by this afternoon at 4pm, I’ll let you know. My god! I can’t take messages like that. My mind is so powerful; it runs a mile even before knowing what actually happened. As I was unsatisfied of what I heard from my sissy, I called Pop. I was relieved, he said, Mum’s okay, it’s just that they want to have it checked by the doctor, the fever and chills are on and off mode. They’re preventing dengue, if ever. And I pray it isn’t. I still have to get updates. Which br...

Bakit bas a tuwing may umaalis, napi feel ko ding sumama? May mga taong minsan mo lang nakita, saglit na napakilala and yet, parang sobrang close na kayo, as if you’ve known them forever. The memories are rushing like a river, yung fun at bonding, andun. It seems like itinadhana kayong magkaibigan. Nakakahappy lang isipin na someone can touch you the way you never imagined. Kasi minsan, those people na isang tingin mo pa lang na di mo masasakyan, e yun pala yung mga taong, swak na swak sa personalidad mo. The truth is, I don’t wanna be attached with someone kasi nahi hurt ako tuwing umaalis at naiiwan ako. Not that I am not used with rejection, pero iba yung feeling pag nakabuo ng bond and then, breaks apart because of distance. The reason why I don’t like long distance relationships is because I am a demanding friend/ gf. Ayoko yung walang effort. I dislike passive relationships, mas feel ko yung active, growing and vibrant relationships na anjan kayo para sa isa’t isa. I g...

Let it simmer. I always believed that things will come into places when the time is right. Di kelangang ipush ang mga bagay bagay. If it’s for me, kusang dumarating. I had a talk with my sissy regarding my long-term plans. She mentioned about setting up a business and me, co-managing her. I am fine with the idea. I am thrilled, to say the least. I guess it’s about time for me to start something na machachallenge ko yung sariling kakayahan ko. Do I have what it takes? But may bruhang side talaga yung sarili ko, I am thinking, it’s too early. Parang my experience is not enough, I lack the proper sales training. My friends tell me na may K ako kahit papano because I have PR, but then again, bakit di ko Makita na meron ako nun? I always miss the chance to talk sales to someone kasi nauunahan ako ng pride. Weird nga, business is business. I should learn to separate my personal self sa business that I am into, careerwoman. How can I be successful as a businessperson kung palagi kong...

DEATH. I always find a way not to talk about it whenever I have a chance. I find it too scary, too sad and too depressing. I am constantly shocked when I hear someone pass away at a very young age. I recently read a post of my friend who has a friend who passed away at 24. She had cancer. Imagine? 24?? When life has just begun? When the world has just been giving a new meaning? When we’re all finding our own place in this world? Seriously, I find it disturbing. I have someone I knew back in college that is suffering from prostate cancer too; the other one is breast cancer… My gosh! How cruel can this world be? Why so young? Why that kind of illness? Why them? Why… why? It seems frustrating that age doesn’t matter anymore. I cannot speak for them and their sufferings but I can speak for the age bracket that I am in. It scares the hell lot of me honestly. I told my friend last night, hey, why do I always feel like I will be passing away at a young age? And she said me too. ...

I think I can relate with this song. I hope he gets the meaning... but if he doesn't well then, Good luck to me! The strength to say I love you is just so limited. My knees get shaky, my tongue gets sticky, I seem to stammer, an uncontrollable stutter. but I did tell you, I like you. Didn't you know I had been sleepless just because I said that? Why, because I am not accustomed to being verbal. Geez, how much lucky can you be? :)))))

Staying safe is nice. It makes you feel secure, makes you feel complete. It makes you see life as a gift readily available. It’s just so comfortable, so convenient to act within the set boundaries. My friends told me, “why sacrifice? When you can come home anytime?” My answer is still the same… “Goal” Sometime in one’s life, there’s this quench for adventure, a risky investment. Although, Life is giving me pleasant surprises, there’s still this drive to dream, to explore and discover. Why should I be bound by the limits set to me by my society? Why stay safe in a corner when I have the will to see the other side? When I first decided to go after my dream, I was hurled by so many questions. Life was good, why immerse myself to unknown? What if I don’t make it? What if I will? What happens after? Can I take disappointment? Can I rewind? Few of the questions I dared myself to have a solid answer and yes, I just get a solid NO every time. As far as being rational, there are more r...

The bonding that I have with her is something more relaxed. Yun bang, parang nasa coffee shop lang, yung feeling of serenity while talking to her is very observable. She’s very calm and composed, never in my years of friendship with her na nakita ko sya in panic. Parang wala lang, even in Oral recitations. That’s L. When we converse, it’s like I am thrown into a different dimension. Yung mga apprehensions ko nagvavanish kasi I know she understands me. Mapa seryosong usapan or mejo may kakornihan and pati greenish humor, madaling pumick up. I regard her as someone whom I can trust kahit pa sa deepest secrets ko. I remembered on our way to Caticlan from Ilo ilo, we just spoke sa whole duration ng almost 5 hours trip. It’s just so comforting to know na may nakakarelate sa mga topic na isineshare ko. When I tell her, don’t spill, I am confident na she’ll just keep it within herself. Ganyan sya. She’s someone whom I can easily talk to kahit gaano ka sensitive yung topic kasi feeling ...

Try to be open but don’t be an easy prey. “You’re tendency is that you want a man to chase you but that’s just it, you just let them chase. Did you get any of them? No?” My former lady boss told me. I laughed so hard ‘cause I don’t know what to say. I am taken aback. And then I asked, “Why, what’s the best thing to do?” She laughed at me and told me, I am obviously a kid at heart. I don’t know how to react to certain things and though I look like a smug who seem to know everything, I am a beginner in the game of love. How can I ever tell you that in my heart I have found a love deeper than what I saw? How can I ever tell you that once in my life, there’s this someone who meant the world to me? How can I ever tell you that I have fallen in love… in silence? And although it has been a long time since I felt that alive, I have no doubts that I can love again. My idea of love is full of sacrifices; my idea of love is something that stands the test of time. My idea of love is what ...

DOM… As far as my notes are concerned, DOM stands for Dirty Old Man. Pero there is a gender equality issue there so, sige na nga, Dirty Old Matrona pwede din. One of my closest friends told me, “I am so bwiseet with someone that I changed my phone number ‘cause he’s bugging me big time. In fact, he is harassing me” and I was like, what form of harassment? I got surprised she told me, “he’d text in the middle of the night with perverted messages!” Kaloka ha! Quite more shocking is the fact that I know the guy and it’s a common knowledge that he’s married! (I even know his wife) Geez! Ganyan na ba talaga ngayon? Where are the faithful guys? Those godly and decent men whose rationality goes beyond earthly desires? Ang pangit na idea. I am single, and I’ve been saving myself for someone who’s true and makes no promises but pure acts of love and kindness and hearing all these makes me scared to fall in love even more. What’s more disturbing is the fact that my close friend, is ...

Change your friends… (Let’s cut hypocrisy and try to be as real as possible, superficial as it may sound.) So the possibility of having someone special depends on my friends? The possibility of knowing new people depends upon my choice of friends? This is a rather funny thought. While it is true na we choose friends, it cannot account to a higher probability to gain a bf. Or so I thought. Why change friends? No bigger reason than boys being intimidated when you’re with a young, active, independent and good-looking group of single ladies. Sabi pa ng isa, you know what, imagine yourselves… You walk into a bar in a circle, then the guys would elbow each other, will stare at you and try to make an eye contact, but… your attention is chatting with your friends. Your attention is to having fun with the same group of girls over and over again, sa tingin mo, sino’ng lalake ang magkaka guts to move closer? Try to move singly. Try to be with a group na taken lahat except you, so you’l...

Second person: Another breakthrough is J. I guess meant to be talaga kami to be together. She’s the girl na isang tingin mo pa lang, high maintenance talaga, mahirap kaibiganin, nakakadyahe. From head to foot, classy. At first, you wouldn’t like to be hanging out with her kasi for someone like me, she’s just too maarte. Alam mo yung every detail ng suot nya, alam nya. Her burloloy is well chosen, her things, ewan ko lang kung di ka malula sa presyo kahit isang clip lang. Her choice of fashion is quite high sa mga katulad kong swerte na ang edgy na blouse yung suot. But apart from her classy, fashionable appeal, she is with a mabuting kalooban. She’s also a giver. Di talaga nagdadamot. She offers you something kahit di mo hinihingi. She’s willing to listen kahit di sya magsalita sa whole duration ng topic and she’ll just say; “Grabe naman yun” That’s what makes being with her very challenging. Aside from her busy schedule nowadays, she’s also tahimik lang unless nakainom. Tapos w...

While they say, tell me who your friends are, and I tell you who you are, I am glad to name or even shout their names. Some call them: CRUSHES, some: PRETTY GIRLS but to me it’s just a simple: FABULOUS FRIENDS. In trying times, you’ll find out who’ll stick with you. But in my case, they might be stuck with me as to lack of choice. Who can they call? Who can they be associated to? In Singapore, just a few, and that would be unnecessary without me. LOL . Anyway, I am thankful I have known them in this lifetime. First person: A, she’s more like me. Same-same talaga kami when it comes to pananaw sa life. While I am leaning more sa aking pagka brutally honest, sya naman, if you won’t ask about her opinion, di nya sasabihin. Sometimes, I feel I speak too much, kaya tumatahimik nalang din ako sa mga opinions ko. We jive in together because we’re the same headstrong, driven individuals who enjoy freedom more than early compassion from early tweetums. Haha She’s very independent. She’s a...

OMG! I am undeniably getting… OLD or perhaps, MATURED! The signs are showing, too visible even I could not seem to understand. The reality of being a middle 20’s is that some things are quite necessarily changing. I don’t know if this is an embraceable truth or not, but seriously, do I have a choice? The visible Signs: 1) I get irritated with myself for not sleeping earlier than 11pm! I am in constant chase to have at least 8 hours sleep. And being with nocturnal friends, I am very much different. 2) I am irritated that no matter how I wanted to sleep the whole morning on a weekend, I still wake up before 9am. I get back to sleep but I know I am just cheating, my mind is so alive; closing my eyes is just an excuse. 3) I am irritated when someone doesn’t come on a supposed time schedule. I have become very conscious of time, I hate being LATE! 4) I had a horrible dream about CANCER, I was shaken, so now I am trying my best to obtain nutrients from veggies ( although I eat...

I guess he has an ego bigger than the great white shark. But yeah, what makes him more appealing to me is the fact that I am slightly chasing him. You know who we are, Aries people love adventure and the thrill of chasing. But that’s just about it, I won’t get down so low to achieve him. *** No, I never felt like this before. The uncontrollable grin every time I think of him. And somehow, I regretted that I chickened out. I regretted that I haven’t given him much attention. That I felt like a high schooler who ran away enjoying the chase. That’s just so lame, and I realized it now. *** I don’t know really know what’s with me but idealistic as it may sound, he might be the answer to my prayers. Few people know how I save myself up for someone who’s going to be my first and last. I wish and pray he’s worth it. I wish it would him. *** No, the panicky feeling may be showing but I know and I am confident that when he comes, he comes. There’s no doubt as to his existence. I know h...